a not so special me woke up in a not so special room,
and slept again in another not so special room.
Yesterday i slept in my fren's room, coz after reading book and chit chatting,
just too lazy to go back to my room, and i t was late!
I woke up again in the afternoon, one of my roomate was reading newspaper,
I wondered, i thought he has lecture today, because usually Tuesday I'm the only person that is so free until everyone so jealous with me! But they never know that every Tuesday i stay in this not so special room, I didn't felt much special and nothing much special would happen.
And sometimes..... I felt the loneliness, the emptiness...
11 years ago, a young little boy , with his family, shifted from butterwoth to KL, the capital city of Malaysia, and they stay at the middle of the city, the central of the city! Soon he realised that this world is so big and spectacular, since he borned he never expect that there will be so many person, so many car, so many building, and he would have seen that at the balconi of his house. He doesn't really know why they have to shift to KL, their life in Penang(butterworth) was peace, happy, harmony..
And from terrace houses to shop houses, It made a young and innocent boy so confused..From housewife to a hawker, selling fruit juices, soft drinks and so on beverages, and then everyone started to called her "Tauke Nio"..
This young and innocent boy never thought much, he enjoyed his new life by helping around in the restaurant with his mother, he was so protected and seldom have chance to expose to the world from that four walls he usually stayed. He enjoyed it and he was happy..
Time flies in the city, the boy grown up as a teenager,his parents work hard to earn money and pay for the high living cost in KL.He always stay alone in the house, parents have to work till late at night, sister started to work, brothers went to work in Singapore and Johor.. and now he had to learn how to enjoy this "Freedom" that he got- not so purposely...He hang out with friends, went travelling, spent a lot for entertainment, shopping, net surfing...
This life seems so fascinating, so fantastic, but beneath the freedom, after everything, when he back to his home again, he felt lonely,empty, he understood that all those thing won't follow him forever, but he not so understand that why he had to face all this alone!
Years gone by, and now the boy step into the stage of 20, and he learnt how to enjoy the time when he's alone, and luckily along his journey, he met a lot of good friend, some are still in contact but some are not, lead him, guide him, care him, so he is now a quite optimistic person and still learning, how to be a "useful" person, a person that have value, that have market value! Because he realise that, no one is gonna help him forever, he can't rely on anyone, he must learn how to be independent,If he has no market value, he will suffer in the future!
Now he's studying in the University, taking degree course, Bachelor in communication with honor, wish that he could enhances his communication skills and make use in his career in the future! But studying in University is not only to study, because study is just a small part in University life... and there's many thing else to learn...
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That was a great blog i have ever seen and read. Look u will not be alone. U have friends , and ur friends have u.. just don give up on anything. Honestly, i know u r a brave boy unlike others, i admire ur strength. Keep it up, i support u :)
Don be sad, sometimes also good when u r alone in the noisy city.
life goes on, and u must treasure it.
Sy