Why am I here? I’m currently studying in UUM, doing Bachelor of Communication, but why am I here? Last year March, when I first got my STPM result, millions of unsure and worries in my mind. Which course should I choose? Which university should I put as my first choice? What if I do not get the course I want? Which course most suitable for me? What is my future? Is university my only choice?
I thought of doing something related to music, but I am totally out because the course requirement is at least grade 5 (music theory), and interview is needed. Then I thought of doing film-making/directing, or acting, no one supports me of course, I never been doing such thing before, and I know nothing about that field, they just think that I am unrealistic. Therefore, I wanted to do something is more common, something that have more guarantee to my future, and something that slightly, a little bit, related to film and acting or broadcasting field – Communication or Mass Communication.
After I get into University, I realized the course is not like what I thought, it can be fun, but I do not find any interest. Each day I go to lecture hall, I do not know what actually I am doing there. No full attention was paid, assignments are copy and paste, and attendances are to be fake. I begin to think again the reason why I am here.
My first semester was fantastic, interesting, exciting, fascinating… Since the orientation week, I feel that I am actually very lucky, I got to know bunches of friend. Everything seems smooth, nothing much needs to be worried and I have had a lot of fun. However, things change; we cannot hold the last seconds until the next! My life in campus is not upside down, but it is completely different. This semester I experience a lot of ups and downs, too little time for too many stuff. Instant noodles and breads made me vomiting, but that’s the effect for not thinking carefully before doing. What is the reason I am here? The only fun thing I have in here is joining a song-composing club – 7.9 club. But that is not the reason I am here, Why am I here?