It's already 7 years, they're my closest friends for these years, but they don't really know what i am thinking. I never expect my friend to know or to guess what i think and what i thought, but i never realise they mind that they don't know what i think.
They said:" You've changed, Keo.."
"What? i've changed? In what way? i'm still the same person!?" I asked.
"You don't care your best friend nowaday.." YY replied.
"I do care all my friends, why do you say so? Did I done something wrongly? "
I admit that these days I'd change alot, but it's not like i don't care my friends, i'm just not like last time always in depressed mood, be more talkative and sometimes a bit hyper... Then i looked at them, they're like not so use to/ happy with the "present" me..
And then i think, what they expect from best friend? They want the "former" me? But i'm still the same person, just that what I'd experienced force me to change.. so i have to keep going, moving forward..
I don't want to step on a same place, the place that made me sad;
I don't want to listen to the same song, the song that made me cry;
I don't want to look at the same picture, the picture that made me depress;
I don't want to do the same move, the move that made me looked like an idiot!
If the past will just form a "depressed-mood" me, If the past will just form a "crying" me, If the past will just form a loser... Why should I turn back? But i wonder, how far can I go before i have to turn back?
I want to get what I want and what I like, nothing much,
at least, confidence! at least, happiness!
But sometimes i scared, i worried,
what if I don't see what I want to see when i go further?
what if i don't get what i want when I moved forward?
And then I think, If we never try, we never learn! If we never try, we won't know the result!
No one want to be a useless person, I don't know what I can achieve, but at least i try! Some people think it's more safe to stay at the same place, but since i've moved forward, why pull me back?
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